Monday, January 11, 2010

To Be Fully Known

"My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me." John 10:27


To be fully known and understood and loved despite all that. I don't know if it's a girl thing or what, but that has always been a deep desire of mine. I guess that's why girlfriends are so important to me, because they come the closest to meeting that need.

Today, I was thinking about how God does that for me and for each one of us who let's him. He knows the depths of our hearts and minds, our intentions and motives. Our ugly. He not only gets what we need, but as our Creator, he fuels that need by placing certain desires in our heart.

I have always been amazed that God knows exactly who I am and still loves me. This wasn't a new realization for me. My Ah-Ha! moment came when I realized that it is absolutely unfair that I would expect any other human to be able to love me like that. And I have unconsciously expected people to, or at the very least, wanted them to and then have been disappointed when they can't. It is no small thing that God loves us in spite of who we are. That is exactly what makes him God.

Today I am overflowing with an appreciation for His unique love for me. I think this may help me love those around me with fewer expectations, more oversight, and with less of a reflection of how they love me.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Flighty Update

I know, I know. I never blog. True.


Life just keeps blurring past me. Loving every moment (well...almost) of watching the kids grow up before my eyes. But nothing seems significant enough to write about. I'll do my best for an update:
  • Amelia has lost two teeth. She is obsessed with getting money from the tooth fairy and has been ever since she witnessed her cousin Haley loose a tooth. The first tooth was ready to come out, hanging by a thread. I asked her if she wanted me to yank it out. Uh-uh. She wanted to do it herself. She just reached in there and yanked it out. A week or so later, the next tooth was loose. This time, she yanked that thing out in my opinion, about three days early. It was not THAT loose. She wanted that money bad!
  • Lane is the cutest thing ever right now. He is talking up a storm. The only noticeable speech problem he has left is his r's, which makes his talking so adorable to me. I love it! I keep saying I'm going to write down some of the way he says things so I can remember it but I never do.
  • All three kids are really into telling jokes. My current favorite is supposed to go like this: What do you call cheese that doesn't belong to you? Nacho cheese. But when Lane tells it, it sounds like this: What's cheese that doesn't long to you? Nacho cheese. Hey, at least they are starting to make sense!
  • Owen is 2. Enough said, right?
I myself, am up to my usual hobby hopping! I seem to be all out consumed with one thing for a period of time and then I shift to something else for a while. In 2009 it included sewing, Twilight, baking, photoshop & digital craftiness in general, along with constant projects for the kids school. Every single one of those remains an interest of mine, I just don't have time for more than one of them at any single time. At the moment I am back to reading, thanks to my sister, who hooked me on the Stephanie Plum novels. I am on book 5 of 14. This obsession may last a while. Hoping to get back to sewing soon after that. I really miss it.

I'm not even going there with New Year's Resolutions. I mean really. Just pull up my blog on that matter from last year and ditto that. Depressing!

I'm off to see what kind of blunder Stephanie will find herself in this time. Bible study starts back tomorrow at which time I will institute the Can't Read My Book Until I've Read My Bible routine. That usually works out well. Sometimes.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas from our family to yours!






Monday, November 23, 2009

Great Friends,Sick Kids, Great Friends

Jason and I just returned from a trip to Dallas, without kids, to see our friends Ben and Karen. Without kids. Can I just say that again? WITH.OUT.KIDS. Do you have any idea how wonderfully, amazing it was? One day, I ate a bowl of cereal at 11:15 am. One morning, Jason brought me a cup of coffee and a brownie in bed. I just sat there and relished every sip. I saw two movies in a theater. I bet I hadn't seen two movies in a theater in six or eight months before that. One night, I stayed up till 2:30, by choice, holding a precious four week old baby while she slept on my chest-and I enjoyed watching every breath she took. No one needed me for 72 hours! And this isn't even touching on the real reason we had such a great trip-Ben and Karen. It was so great to spend time with them just talking and catching up (and having someone to laugh with me at Jason). Karen said it best when she said, "You know you have found a good friendship when it is just easy". That is exactly what the time together was-easy. We never cared what we were doing or where we were going. But whatever we were doing or wherever we were going was a blast.

Hallie, the newest addition to the Wright family, is absolutely precious. She seems to be taking on the laid back disposition of both her parents. You barely even knew she was there. I think she is extremely blessed to have such kind and joyful parents. I don't think she will ever know what stress is because it doesn't seem to exist in either Ben or Karen.

Backing up now a little-I think every possible thing was working against us on going on this trip. Three days before we left, Lane got a sinus infection. Rattled me a little knowing that I was trying to leave, but really no big deal. One day of antibiotic and he was fine. One hurdle overcome. Then we find out that my sister, who is supposed to have my kids for most of the time I'm gone, has to go to a funeral on Friday and Saturday that was out of town. Of course I understand, since I myself would have been at that funeral had I not had a plane ticket to Dallas already paid for. Still, a little moment of stress to now have to make other arrangements for my kids on such short notice. Also the fact that imposing on friends is just never your first choice. My girlfriend Meg saved the day and took them for Fri night and Saturday. Another hurdle overcome. 1:40am on Thursday morning, Amelia has what I thought was an asthma attack. She came into our room gasping for air, crying and panicking, unable to breathe. I used all her rescue meds and she started moving air pretty well. We woke up at 6am with a huge decision to make. I listened to Amelia to try to make my decision and she sounded great. I didn't hear any wheeze or coarseness. But I was still pretty shook up by night before. Very reluctantly, we decided to go on. I took her inhalers to the nurse, took her to school, and started my second guessing. After a call to the doctor, I discovered it wasn't an asthma attack, but croup. Great. I just took my contagious child to school and am getting ready to fly away in an air plane.

This is where the great friends come in once again. Ashley went and got Amelia from school, filled her prescriptions, and took care of her for the next day all the while exposing her son to my sick daughter. She was very gracious in her attitude about the whole thing. Even through all this, the kids had a blast there. I knew they were in good hands. Thank you Ashley and Joe for your willingness to help and your graciousness in a less than ideal situation.

I mentioned my great friend Meg before. She is the one that took my kids for the time my sister needed to be at the funeral. Yeah-did I mention she herself has two year old triplets? Need I say anything more about what a great friend she is?

I only wish this story were over, but, No. The kids finally got to my sisters house Saturday evening just in time for Lane to come down with some sort of a stomach virus. He was up all night screaming, apparently, and threw up all Sunday morning. You know someone who cleans up your kids vomit off their couch, repeatedly, is a great friend.

So you know people are just lining up to keep the Tomlinson children. Yeah, no.

Can you stinkin' believe that all this happened while we were away? Who is trying to punish us for spending a little time together and with friends? I have a new ability to relate to those parents who refuse to leave their kids for the fear that something like this would happen while they were all the way across the country. I guess it actually could happen. But you know what? I still say, Go! Beside the feelings that our kids were an imposition on my friends, I say, that's what friends are for. And I can only say that because I would not even hesitate to keep any one of their kids in the same situation if it meant they got to go away and be together. It's good for you to go away and focus on being married and being a friend and being an adult. Rather than being a mommy and only a mommy-24/7. So plan a trip, now. And yes, I will keep your kids!

Thank you again, Ashley, Meg, Gina and families for blessing our family with the ability to take this trip. That gift is greatly appreciated.



Amanda, Karen, and I enjoying a little New Moon Madness at the 12:01am showing on Friday morning. So fun to finally meet Amanda in person although I've been reading her blog for almost 2 years!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Upcoming Fun

A few fun things in the near future.


Soon Jason I and will be going to Dallas to see our friends Ben and Karen and their new baby Hallie. Jason grew up with Ben and lucky for me I love his wife as much as Jason loves Ben. I will also finally get to meet Amanda and Zach, two of their best friends, that I have become friends with through their blog and our mutual friendship with Ben and Karen. It is the first big trip Jason and I have taken without the kids in a while. They will be in great hands while we are gone. They will think they are on a vacation as they enjoy their cousins and family friends. I am looking forward to the time with Jason. I feel slightly apprehensive about being across the country from my kids but I know holding them tightly does not change anything as they are in God's control, not mine.

We finally made our Christmas plans! Amelia has been wanting to see snow for a few years now but we have been putting it off until Owen got to a manageable age. Now that I realize he may never be manageable, we figure we will just go. For weeks we have had very vague plans, unsure of where to go and what to do when we got there. Neither Jason and I are interested in skiing and our kids are certainly not at the age for that. But I was hesitant to drive north only to stay in a hotel and turn around and come home. We finally decided on North Carolina to go snow tubing. We have a full agenda of things we think will work for our kids. Reservations are made. We are leaving the day after Christmas. It's official!

Very much looking forward to the holiday season. Our annual Christmas party is around the corner and that is always surrounded with a lot of exciting planning for me and a fun time with friends at its finale. Jason and I feel a huge relief in the gift giving department as we have decided to make our gifts meaningful rather than stress over finding the perfect gift for each person. We are trying to focus on quality time with family rather than a token gift that they probably don't want or need anyway. This really simplifies the season for me and allows me to focus my family on the real meaning of Jesus' birthday rather than rushing around preoccupied with shopping.

Hoping that you all have many exciting things in your near future as we approach this fun holiday season!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Blah, Blah, Blog

I cannot believe I have resorted to boring blog posts where I just record the happening of our day to day. First we did this, then we did this. Blah, blah, blah. Who cares? How about approaching it with a funny story or a deep thought? I got nothin'. Sorry about that. So for the sake of the grandparents who may be the only people who do care about the day to day, I will try to give a little update. For the rest of you who would actually enjoy something interesting to read, I'm hoping to be inspired sometime real soon.


Amelia is absolutely loving school. She still thinks she is there for the sole purpose of her personal enjoyment. But in the mean time, she is learning a lot. She is reading well which makes her mama very happy! (It's about time, she's been getting SRA lessons since she was 3!) She isn't reading fluently at all but she can sound out most any word and is slowly building her sight words. Reading with her is one of my favorite things to do each day. It is slow going and a little laborious for her but she seems to be satisfied with her progress as well. She has calmed down a little bit on this Nicholas boy at school. At least I don't hear about him every day. When getting dressed for picture day last week, she sighed when looking at the outfit I picked out, and said sadly, "Nicholas doesn't like white." Oh no, sweet girl, we do not dress for a boy, especially at the age of 5! Where does she get this! She has started talking about other friends in the classroom and every once in a blue moon one of them is actually a girl. Come on, I only have one girl, couldn't she be just a little bit girly? Just a little? Actually, I wouldn't trade her independence and free spirit for anything in the world.

Lane also loves school, which is both a major relief and a little surprise. I knew he would like it when he was there. But the other day I gave him the option of coming home with me after having lunch with him and he decided he would rather stay and play. That was the part that surprised me, that he would actually choose school over home. That made me very happy since sometimes I still struggle with the whole being in school full time at 3 thing. He has made the most dramatic gains since going to school. Not for a lack of trying, but Lane went to school without being able to say his ABC's or having any letter recognition. He could count but also no number recognition. I couldn't muster up any interest from him in this department. I wasn't worried. I just chalked it up to boys and girls are different and he'll learn it eventually. I have been amazed at how quickly he has picked up on things. He knows every letter his teacher works on for the week and points them out to me everywhere we go on every sign or piece of paper he sees. He has gone from complete scribble when coloring to very deliberate and careful scribble. He will take 5 or 10 minutes to color one thing as he decorates it with every color in the crayon box. Again, boys and girls are so different-this was never Amelia's approach although she could stay perfectly in the lines by age 3. He has 3, mostly 4, and one 5 year old in his class. Today his teacher told me he knew more things that started with a than the others in the class. That will make a momma proud! It has been really fun seeing all the things he has learned in such a short time. He also is very proud of himself.

Owen is our character. He is truly something else to have so many opinions about things at such a young age. For instance he knows quite strongly that he does not like collared shirts and that he does like hats, glasses, and sometimes even Amelia's dress up necklaces. He asks me why? a million times a day, which is often comical but also exhausting. He is horrible at sharing and would rather the toy get taken away than have to share it with his brother and sister. Thank you Aunt Gina for that wonderful turtle toy you gave at his birthday. You may as well have bought him a drum set! You don't have to worry about him getting walked all over. He will give Amelia or Lane or the random kid at the YMCA KidZone an ear full if he doesn't like what's going down. I have a feeling if I could understand what he was actually saying, he'd probably be getting a few more spankings than he already is. He is going with me to Bible Study Fellowship on Wednesday morning which is a very structured learning environment if you can imagine that for a 2 year old. And I'm not joking. They sit down and listen to the same bible story that I am studying that week, sing hymns, and learn bible verses. We go to a little music class on most Tuesday mornings, also. This is the first time I've gotten to do anything like that with just him. I did all that stuff with Amelia and Lane when they were little. It has been fun to get some special time with just him.

Jason has been enjoying the SEC football season. I try to be flexible when our entire weekend revolves around what time the Gators play. I know the season isn't too long and he doesn't really have a lot of hobbies that take him away from the family. The kids have really gotten into it this year, too. The boys both have Gator jerseys and Owen points to his chest and says,"Te-Bow" to every passerby.

I am enjoying volunteering at the kids school once a week. Sometimes I think maybe I will enjoy going back to the classroom one day but mostly I try not to think about it. I like my current job much better. Being a full time mom, that is.

I have really felt the void of my see- almost- every- day friend Stacie. I mentioned in another blog that they moved to Savannah. It is funny how a friend can become so much a part of your every day life and you don't even realize it until you pick up the phone to borrow a cup of sugar and realize she's not just a mile down the road anymore.

Not that anyone could ever take her place, but thankfully the Lord has blessed me with a new friend, Ashley. I like her so much. She is super easy to talk to-very honest and open. She loves the Lord so I know her life perspective matches up with mine. She is a great mom and has the cutest little baby boy, Owen, who you could just eat up he's so stinkin' sweet! Our schedules don't sync up at all or I'm sure we would be spending more time together. But Jason and I enjoy getting together with her and her husband Joe on the weekends. Right now we are totally benefiting from the fact that their Owen is still so little he can transfer at night from our house back to theirs. This makes late football or card games work out nicely for cheap entertainment. Not sure what we'll do when that doesn't work anymore-we'll actually have to find a sitter!

I am also enjoying the nearness of my sister. She moved to Bradenton in August. I know I shouldn't be complaining since 35 minutes is closer than 3 hours, but I still wish I saw her more. I wish she was my see-every-day friend. I think I see her at least once a week which is WAY better than when she lived in Gainesville. But the more I see her, the more I wish I could see her. I wish we were close enough to exercise together, pick up things at the grocery store for each other, have over for dinner every week, etc. Her life is just as busy as mine so right now we just do the best we can. There will be a life stage when we will be able to do more and knowing that is fun.

I am slightly overwhelmed at how I can pack lunches, check folders, go to aerobics, put kids to bed and before I know it, another week has passed. I know all of that stuff is important. I mean, I do consider motherhood a major ministry opportunity and privilege . I'm just saying, as far as doing more for God and being more of who he wants me to be, where do I fit that in? That is, after all, the ONLY thing that matters. Who I am before Christ is the only thing that goes beyond this life into eternity. I don't really think he wants to hear, "But I was just so busy with life I forgot to do what you asked me and be who you wanted me to be." Yeah, I doubt that's gonna cut it. So in this busy, joyful, stressful, crazy preschool life I ask, how can I get more of You, God? Please show me. That is my heart's cry at this moment.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Owen





Owen:
  • adores his brother and sister, greets them with a running hug every day when they return to school, and he just wants to do whatever they are doing.
  • spends his playtime at home either pushing vehicles rambunctiously around the house or sitting calmly and playing with his Thomas the Train track.
  • loves to be read to and loves making the animal sounds of the animals he sees on the pages.
  • is rotten to the core and fits every "baby of the family" stereotype that I've ever heard. He gets away with stuff I would have never dreamed of letting the others get away with, mostly because I have so many other battles to fight and I'm just tired.
  • is almost perfect in public when you take him out alone but turns into something entirely different when running errands with the other two. He is that kid jumping out of the shopping cart and screaming at the top of his lungs all the way through Publix. Sorry, people, I've got to go grocery shopping!
  • loves giving kisses, Zerberts, and the best tightest hugs ever. He is very affectionate and gives it out freely, he doesn't know a stranger.
  • is known for catching you off guard if you are sitting on the floor. He will run and jump on you full speed with no prior warning. He's strong too, and we often find ourselves flat on the floor from this.
  • copies EVERYTHING his brother and sister say and do. It is hysterical. One thing he picked up from them is saying, "get my hiney, hiney" after his nightly shower. He then runs full speed away down the hall and expects you to run after him and tickle him when he gets to his room. He is so stinkin' cute when he says this.
  • thinks he needs to wear his sunglasses everywhere he goes. He is also known to have on a string of beads and a hat of some sort. It is quite the sight! Good thing he hasn't discovered Amelia's dress up clothes yet!
  • is starting to talk more and has many words that are understandable to me and Jason and of course his brother and sister. He calls Amelia, YaYa, which was originated by Lane and he calls his brother Yane.
  • has skipped the two year old "NO" and moved on the the three year old, "WHY?". He asks this after everything you say.
Happy Birthday, Buddy! I can't believe you're 2 years old today!